do something different?
maybe what you 'want' to be doing is subconsciously driven by what you think he would want you to be doing. I've been where you are (I think) and it is not a good place for your personal growth. If the things that you are doing are, indeed, things that you, of your own volition, want to be doing and you still think of him, maybe it's time to shake things up and do something different...something that is perhaps "out of character" for you (and I don't mean self-destructive things). <BR